This and That

Now that school is out I have a little more time to think about this blog thing.  I admit that I am not the most interesting blogger, heck I don't even make regular postings.  But I kind of like having it and I do try.   In my last posting it was 1:30 a.m. going on 2:00.  I couldn't sleep and I was troubled inside, so I wrote what was on my mind and in my heart.  The thoughts and feelings won't change right away, but in some strange way, I feel better for having wrote it.  

So what has been happening in Terry's world since Easter?  Well, take a look.  

Pep Rally May 20

Mr. Flenniken eats jello through a snorkel tube

Mr. Winkfield does 50 + 1 push-ups 

And Mr. Sawyer gets a pie in the face.

Field Day May 21

The RelayRace

Tug of War

Balloons for the Water Balloon Volleyball Game

And finally at the end of the games, we all eat Icekeggis

End of School Year Staff Party May 22, 2009

Debbie Flores, Debbie Winkfield, Tami Winkfield, and Bobby Winkfield 

perform Celebrate, Come On

When I reflect on the activities of the past several weeks, I feel so blessed to have a job I love, to work with the coolest, most talented people around, and to have a common thread of faith woven among us.  

Now that school is over I am looking forward to going back home to Indiana for some rest and time with family and friends from there.  

What Do I Do?

Do you ever feel like your life is consumed by your work?  That's how I feel some days about my job. I'm always busy doing something connected with school.  Don't get me wrong.  I love teaching 4th grade very much.   I love almost everything about it....planning lessons, preparing those lessons, teaching those lessons, and even grading.  Okay, I'm not too keen on the grading part, but everything else I really enjoy doing.  That's why I do it.  

However, there are times when I feel like school is all I do.  And some days I just want something else.  Something not associated with school or teaching.  Sometimes I just want to go out and have a nice evening with someone.  I want a man to notice me and say, "Um, I want to ask her out."  I want a little romance in my life.  The absence of it leaves me feeling, well, empty inside.  I guess that is why I get busy with school.  Keeping busy kind of helps me not think so much about how lonely I feel.  Kind of, but not really.  The empty feeling never really goes away, no matter how busy I let myself get.   Not only do I feel empty, but I also feel heartbroken.  When men don't notice you, you feel unattractive, undesirable, unwanted, worthless.

I know I am not worthless.  It's just a feeling, not a fact.  But I can't help feeling this way.   I cannot deny that God has provided in other ways.  I have a job that I love.  My students like me.  I have a wonderful family and great friends.   I don't take any of this for granted.  I am so grateful for everything.    It's just hard, that's all.  

A friend recently encouraged me to check out eHarmony as a possible avenue for meeting men. Of course I have heard about this and I am a little curious, I suppose.  But, I just don't want to meet someone through a computer.  I want it to be random, a chance meeting somewhere, and in person.  Am I too old fashioned?  

My birthday is coming up soon....June 14th.  I wish I would have a date for my birthday.  Wouldn't that be nice?   

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